I know I'm a liar

now I know I said things
did things that I didn’t mean
and I fall back into the same patterns, same routine
don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
told you this is my fault, look in the eyeball
next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
I apologize even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games